I am not joking. I’m still shaking really fucking bad. I am so fucking terrified right now I can’t even…
I tried texting my uncle to see if he knew if someone could take me to an interview in a nearby town. This was the result. WARNING: emotionally manipulative language, religious extremism.
This is terrifying in so many ways. I don’t know what the fuck went wrong. This man is like a dad to me. ….Well, I do know what went wrong. He started attending a church that is notorious for its cult mentality. This is the result. I love my family. But I can’t live with them. I’m afraid of what they would do if they ever found out I was trans.
I’m backed into a corner. The lease is up next month. I have nowhere to go, and I’m not safe with them. These are highly manipulative people so out of touch with the outside world that they’ve retreated into a cult mentality. My gofundme for relocation costs is here.
Please, if you know anyone at all in the Flagstaff, AZ area with a couch they’re willing to let me crash on in March, get in contact with me. I need to get out of this situation. I’m also going to be in contact with several charities who might be able to help with relocation, but it’s not a done deal. This situation just turned highly dangerous for me.
I have two weeks, until March 15 to figure out where I’m going to go. Otherwise I will be homeless and probably be forced to live out of my car. I don’t care if it’s in the Flagstaff area or down in Phoenix at this point. I just need somewhere, anywhere, to go. PLEASE. My roommates don’t give a fuck. My own alleged “best friend” doesn’t give a fuck.
I have tried all the trans groups. I have tried everything. I’m exhausted. Every single answer has been “sorry, we can’t help you”. I just need to get back on my feet and I’ll be out of your hair. For the love of god….please….someone help….
If I made an etsy and made body positive patches, polymer clay accessories/jewelry, crochet plushies, took commissions, etc would anyone buy them?
I’ve been looking for a job but have heard nothing back, and I really need the money to pay off interest on student loans and stuff.
I’ve seen a lot of posts on my dash tonight about users who are threatening suicide, with other Tumblr members posting in effort to try to get ahold of them. I think you all should see this:
IF THERE IS EVER A TUMBLR USER WHO HAS POSTED A GOOD-BYE MESSAGE, SUICIDE NOTE, VIDEO, OR ANYTHING OF THE SORT, PLEASE FOLLOW THIS POST.
1. Scroll to the top of your dashboard.
2. See the circular question mark icon at the top? It’s the third one over from your home symbol. Click on that, and a screen similar to the one in the picture will come up.
3. Where you can type in questions, the box with the magnifying glass at the top, type in the word “suicide.”
4. Click on the first link that shows up. It should say, “Pass the URL of the blog on to us.”
5. Type in the user’s URL and tell Tumblr admin that the user is contemplating suicide and has posted a message indicating that they are going through with it or will be attempting. Hit send! Tumblr administration will perform a number of actions to contact the user and take the necessary steps to prevent the suicide.
TUMBLR: THIS COULD SAVE A USER’S LIFE. PLEASE DO NOT IGNORE SUICIDE THREATS.
Reblog this to keep other users aware. Suicide isn’t a joke, and neither is someone’s life. If you didn’t know this, someone else may not, either. Pass it on.
why on earth doesn’t this have more notes
I actually had to do this once. She lived.
if you scroll past this on your dash you are absolutely heartless.
Reblog this!! This can save somebody’s life!
reblog.
help.
do not scroll down.
I SWEAR TO GOD IF ANYONE SCROLLS PAST THIS WITHOUT REBLOGGING I WILL LITTERALLY FIND THEM AND GIVE THEM A LECTURE
may I just update this?
see the little thing that says help?
Don’t ever scroll past this post. FUCKING NEVER SCROLL PAST!!!
Folks I am in a tight spot, as a trans woman I fear for my safety often when I go out in public by myself, yet even more so when I don’t have the ability to afford “proper clothing” to do so either. That leads to a feeling of crushing, demoralizing inner pain that keeps me from going out at all most time, which you might infer also that it impacts my ability to find work, stay in school, or finding an alternative source of income legal or not, to afford more clothing than my old, ill fitting, torn boy clothes, and scattered things I find on sale for under $5. (the quality of which is what you would expect at that price) On top of that, I suffer from severe depression, anxiety, psychosis and possibly a good number of more as of yet undefined illnesses. These factors coalesce into a situation where I am absolutely not having a good time for much of my waking life within a vaguely supportive and lonely house. I live by myself about 80% of the time, and have asked in the past for donations to help me cover the costs of food and gas in order to get my brother too and from school every day in small increments as my family and I are quite poor as it is.
What I am asking now is, if you would like to, I could use help in covering the costs of clothing and other trans things so that one day I am able to confidently leave my house with less anxiety, which most days translates to my ability to leave the house at all whatsoever. My goal I estimate to be at the very least $50, but more is always appreciated. You can give money to my paypal account at leahmakhno2@yahoo.com in whatever increment you’d like, and if not it’s no big deal, just I ask that you perhaps reblog this post also for others to see. I make this post because I feel my situation getting more and more desperate with each passing day, and would very much appreciate the kindness. thank you.
I have a friend of a friend who might be getting disowned soon for not complying with her very strict family. I was wondering if anyone knew of some resources she could access in the case that that happens.
Hello, I’m Erika. I’m a disabled, lesbian, & poor trans woman and I’m trying to escape my abusive family permanently. San Diego, and California in general, is way too expensive so staying there is not really financially sustainable for me. I want to move up to Seattle or Portland for the long term and I need all of your help to do so I’m able to heal and live my own life again.
My family is super
abusive and intense and constantly draining me like vampires when I’m around them. They’re a flood of emotional abuse, one of them became physically abusive last year, and I see the same red flags that lead up to physical abuse in another family member.
My mental health improves so much when I live away from them and if I can’t find a place to stay in the long term, my choices
are either to be street homeless or go back to my abusive family. Both
of those choices would be really hard and would likely fuck me over.
After going up to Seattle to visit my partner, I’ve realized I don’t want to go back to San Diego or California. San Diego honestly feels way too toxic and I need to be somewhere different, where the majority of my family isn’t, where I can grow and live a life free of people trying to force me to be someone I’m not.
I’m
physically disabled, with a really bad back that prevents me from doing
physical labor but I’d be able to do some of the cooking at the place and some cleaning. I’m in major pain a lot but I can help when I’m not in pain.
If you have a room or couch not being used, I’d be able to pay $100-200/month and I’d really need it to be for the long term while I get my transition stuff and other medical stuff sorted out and I get back on my feet.
If you care about
trans women. If you care about disabled people. If you care about
lesbians. If you care about poor people. If you have radical politics. I
need your mutual aid and solidarity. I need to be able to have an
affirming and safe space where I can heal and if I can’t find somewhere
to stay, I’ll be so much worse off without that.
Please help me
escape my family and not be homeless by offering me a place to stay,
asking people you know if I can stay with them, or if not, signal boost
this post as many times as you can. For the sake of me healing, please
help me with solidarity
I am still working toward my $2000 goal in order to purchase a new laptop. Please share and donate if you can! I would like to express my deepest gratitude to everyone who donates and shares this. Thank you for your help and generosity.
**If you would like to donate to me directly to help me pay for food/medication/rent you can now use my square cash account: cash.me/$Cosmiccrystalart
or
Paypal via: sultry.sugars@gmail.com
You can read about my situation here and you can follow my art bloghere. Thank you!!
**Update!** $354 has been donated to my you caring so far, thank you to all who have shared and donated.
I am going to be returning to therapy in the next month. The office that I go to is the only office I know of in my area with trans/poly/kink aware clinicians. The unfortunate thing is that they do not take my insurance, leaving me to pay out of pocket. The sessions are $260, they have payment plans but can only go so low. I am going to need help if I am going to go back. I relapsed into self harm two days ago, I am desperate to get back to regular therapy. Please donate to my paypal via sultry.sugars@gmail.com to help me pay for my therapy and other living expenses. Without monetary help I can not get the care that I need for my mental health. Please share and if you are able please donate.
Tomorrow I am ending my fundraiser. I can no longer look at it. I am in a very tight spot right now and I need help but it honestly seems hopeless. I am only furthering being triggered by continuing to reblog this with no help. It’s amazing to me how easily white people are funded for trite things.
I need help paying for a new computer and I really really need to get back into therapy. My grandma can only help out a little bit. I can not work because of my disabilities and mental health. Please please if you can donate to my fundraiser or PayPal. Even one dollar helps.
Thank you to everyone who has donated. I greatly appreciate your generosity.
so i’m in serious financial anguish again and at risk of becoming houseless at the end of this month if i can’t come up with enough money to secure a place since my lease ends on july 30th and i only have three weeks to scavenge what i can. i appreciate so much the people who have helped me the last few weeks. without you all, i would not have been able to pay rent or have transportation. i am severely mentally ill and struggle with an autoimmune disorder and i am currently doing sex work (i.e traumatizing myself) to make quick money but it would relieve so much of my stress if i had some more support as well because there is a chance i won’t be able to make enough before the end of this month. my goal is $1,000 but every dollar counts and i am doing everything in my ability to reach this goal. if you could pass this around again, i would be so incredibly grateful. my paypal is rowen.martinez@yahoo.com
Disheveled Mess 